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On bad days I talk to Death constantly, not about suicide because honestly that’s not dramatic enough.

Most of us love the stage and suicide is definitely your last performance and being addicted to the stage, suicide was never an option – plus people get to look you over and stare at your fatty bits and you can’t cross your legs to give that flattering thigh angle and that’s depressing.

So we talk.

She says things no one else seems to come up with, like let’s have a hotdog and then it’s like nothing’s impossible.

She told me once there is a part of her in everyone.

Death taught me to accept that, you know, wear your butterflies with pride.

And when I do accept that, I know Death is somewhere inside of me.

She was the kind of girl all the girls wanted to be, I believe, because of her acceptance of „what is.“

She keeps reminding me there is change in the „what is“ but change cannot be made till you accept the „what is.”

Death: The High Cost of Living

Tori Amos (born August 22, 1963) is an American singer-songwriter and pianist. She is a classically trained musician with a mezzo-soprano vocal range.

Having already begun composing instrumental pieces on piano, Amos won a full scholarship to the Peabody Institute at Johns Hopkins University at the age of five, the youngest person ever to have been admitted.

She was expelled at the age of 11 for what Rolling Stone described as „musical insubordination“.

Amos was the lead singer of the short-lived 1980s pop group Y Kant Tori Read before achieving her breakthrough as a solo artist in the early 1990s. 

Amos has received five MTV VMA nominations, eight Grammy Award nominations, and won an Echo Klassik award for her Night of Hunters classical crossover album.

She is listed on VH1’s 1999 „100 Greatest Women of Rock and Roll“ at #71.